I had my last appointment today with my doctor. I will be seeing a new doc in October. I’m not sure how I feel about this. My former doc said she talked to the new doctor about me and explained a number of things to her. She said the new doctor is OK with the medication refusal. I always feel bad about it. It’s not because I’m an anti psychiatric drug person, it’s just that my body can’t seem to tolerate them. I have friends that the meds have helped tremendously and I have other friends in which the drugs have done more harm then good. And now I have developed a fear of taking any type of psychiatric drug. The former doctor really wanted me to try Seroquel (Quetiapine). But I just can’t bring myself to try it.
The psychiatrist I see is really good. He doesn’t push me to take any drugs at all. In fact he doesn’t even talk about to me except to suggest something I should try every once in awhile. He respects how I feel about it and works with me in other ways to deal with my disorders. I am really grateful for that. I have developed ways of coping with the panic disorder/agoraphobia. Some of them I’m sure are not healthy but they work for now until I can learn other coping strategies. But somehow I still feel bad about not taking anything.
And so I start again.