Monthly Archives: October 2009

What Does Being a Survivor Mean?

Today my T phoned me.  Whenever I see her number on my phone I know that she is cancelling the appointment.  Sure enough that’s what happened.  She is not feeling well and the agency that she works for was sending … Continue reading

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Parts warring within

My T has on occasion talked with me about the parts within me.  I would look at her like she was the crazy one and change the subject.  But I have finally started to acknowledge that maybe she is right.  … Continue reading

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Internal War

There is a war going on within me.  It has been escalating over the last few months but I have recently come to the realization that it started about a year ago.  One day my T asked if I would … Continue reading

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New Doc

Today I had an appointment to see my new family physician.  I was quite nervous about the whole thing.  I dislike having to start over and having to review everything.  My former doc told me that she met with my … Continue reading

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One Sided

I walk into her office and have a seat.  We exchange pleasantries and chitchat for a bit.  Then the exchange of information comes to an end and it becomes all about me.  This is where it the difficulty starts for … Continue reading

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Cancelled Appointment

I saw my therapist today after a two week break. She had cancelled our last appointment due to sickness.  I always find it harder than usual to get back into therapy when it has been disrupted.  I always feel bad … Continue reading

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Is sadness always?

I had a hard time living in my house as a kid. I desperately didn’t want to be there.  I would constantly be thinking about running away.  I would plan what I would take but never had a destination in … Continue reading

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Psychiatrist

I see a psychiatrist once a month for an hour.  When I went to group therapy I didn’t see my T but I continued to see the psychiatrist.  As I started to get to know the other members of the … Continue reading

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