For a while now I have wanted to start running again. I used to run a few years ago but for various reasons, none of which I can remember, I stopped. Since reading Harriet M Welch’s blog and some of the comments, I have finally been inspired to start running again.
My first run was a 5K fun run this New Years Eve. It was -20 c, not including the wind chill. It was very cold. For the first few kilometers I was wondering “what in the world was I thinking”. But then I started to warm up and everything was fine. The race was at 6 pm and with the full moon and the snow resting on the pine trees in the area we were running, it was quite scenic and peaceful.
It has been suggested to me by various docs and my therapist that I should exercise to help manage my anxiety. I do exercise but not in a consistently aerobic way. I play hockey once a week as well as walk in the winter and in the summer I do outdoor things such as mountain biking. These activities aren’t consistently aerobic for me but with running I am aerobic during the entire time.
Although exercise probably does help my anxiety long-term, I do have some problems. There have been times when I have ran that I would actually have a panic attack. I have also had panic attacks while playing hockey. This doesn’t happen often but often enough to freak me out. Having a panic attack while I am already aerobic is quite the rush but not a rush I enjoy. I’m not sure if this a common experience or not. Maybe I am just wacky this way. This may have been one of the reasons I quit running. But this time I will try to persevere through the panic attacks and not quit because of them. I know that is easier said then done. I usually do everything in my power to avoid the panic.
And so I will try to run through the panic. Plus the added perk of weight loss should hopefully keep me on track..