About a month ago my cell phone rang while I was at work. I wasn’t in a position to answer it but I briefly looked at it to see what number it was. It was a blocked number. I quickly stopped the ring but two seconds later it rang again. My cell phone doesn’t ring very often. I mostly text. It was the blocked caller again so I excused myself and answered it. To my great surprise it was the agency that my former t works for. They asked me if I was still interested in taking the group therapy I was put on the waiting list for.
I had forgotten all about the conversation I had with my former therapist about this group just before we ended. In one session we were talking about relationships and she mentioned this therapy group (about relationships) that is run twice a year through the agency. There was one starting right at that time and she asked me if I was interested in participating in it. I told her I was interested but not at that time. I needed to finished up with her first. Otherwise she would have suspended therapy with her while I was in the group and then start-up again for a few last weeks. But I just needed to be done with her and not this stop and start stuff. I agreed to be put on the waiting list for the next go around.
It went totally out of my mind until the phone call. It caught me off guard. I stumbled through a reply and said I was interested. They said they would phone at a later date to make an appointment for an intake interview.
I had the interview Thursday evening. I was quite freaked out walking into the building. I really didn’t want to run into my former t. I looked at the list where the names of the counsellors are written who are still in the building. Hers wasn’t on it. What a relief. But I did find it very weird to talk to the same receptionist asking for a different t.
The interview was with both facilitators which I also found nerve-wracking. I find it hard enough to be in the room with one therapist let alone two. I felt a bit like a bug under inspection which I guess I was in a way.
The interview went fine but I found some of the questions hard to answer. I don’t know these therapists at all. But I did it.
As it turns out there still is a connection with my former t. One of the facilitators is a practicum student and her supervisor is my former t. Yikes! I talked to the student a bit about this and there is a confidentiality thing in place where she can’t use any names. The only thing she would discuss with her supervisor is the group process and not about the people. That eased my mind a bit but it bothers me that my former t is still tied to this even if it’s not directly. I just hope I don’t run into her.
So once again I will enter the world of therapy. It will be in a group setting which suits me fine. It is only for 10 weeks which also suits me fine. I haven’t yet looked for a private t but I hoping this will help me open up to the counselling process again. Right now I feel closed to it because of what happened. This will be a safer way to test the waters again.