Emotional. It’s how I would describe this session. Not for me so much but for everyone else. I haven’t cried at all during any of the sessions and this one was no exception. Someone even commented on it once by asking if I ever cried.
We did a few activities this time around that were more on the personal side. They brought out a baby doll that was lying in a basket. We were given two cloths each. We were to cover the baby with a cloth saying a negative self talk that is part of our belief system such as “I’m such a loser”. We each did this twice and nobody seemed to have a hard time coming up with negative self comments. What I found interesting about this exercise was not so much the comments but the fact I felt comfortable when the baby was buried under the mound of cloths. I can’t figure that out. Kind of strange though.
Some of the group had a hard time listening to the negative comments other group members were speaking. It just showed me that were not so different after all. There was a similarity to the comments we all had heard about ourselves growing up.
Then came the hard part. We were to pick up a cloth off the baby and say two positive comments about ourselves. Of course we had two cloths each to take which meant four positive comments about ourselves. I had a hard time coming up with one let alone four. We all had a hard time.
The next activity was the hardest and the most emotional for the group. One group member at a time had to sit there and receive positive statements about them from each of us. The one receiving them just had to sit there and absorb the comments without comment. It was actually quite powerful to witness and experience the reactions of the receivers. It was very hard to sit there and not contradict what was being said to me. There ended up being a lot of discussion surrounding this. I thought it was a good session. It showed me quite clearly how hard I am on myself.
It’s still bothering me why I felt comfortable when the baby was buried…