Monthly Archives: December 2011

Anxious Thoughts

I’ve been thinking or more honestly trying not to think what it will be like to re-enter therapy.  (if it happens that is) It makes me nervous, real nervous to let my thoughts wander that way.  I’ve been wondering what … Continue reading

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Cranky

It’s the end of Christmas day and I’m so glad.  Christmas is by far my most disliked season.  Not so much because of the day itself but because of all that it reminds me of.  I mostly have crappy memories … Continue reading

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What Just Happened Anyway?

When the therapist asked me to stay a few minutes after the last session I knew they weren’t going to let that one question I answered with ‘almost always’ go unnoticed.  That question being ‘I have thoughts of ending my … Continue reading

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Tenth Session

I sit in my car and wonder if this will be the last time I will be in this parking lot.  My former therapist works for this agency and now group therapy is coming to an end.  I feel at … Continue reading

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Ninth Session

Resilience.  For some reason this is a word that causes resistance in me.  As soon as I hear phrase “You are a resilient person” I feel this resistance start to rise up.  I’m not entirely sure why.  You’d think it … Continue reading

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