Author Archives: lostinamaze
wordless
I have a motherI needed a mom whose lap I could sit onI have a motherI needed a mom who would listen to meI have a motherI needed a mom who would help me fight my battlesI have a motherI … Continue reading
Sick
Sorry I haven’t blogged in a bit. I’m not planning on stopping. It just I’ve been so sick this summer. I have missed a few therapy sessions because of this. I keep getting one flu after another it seems. Hopefully … Continue reading
Integration
I haven’t given this word much thought. I’ve read many blog posts on this concept but never related any of it to myself. That is until a few sessions back. We didn’t talk about this in-depth it just came up … Continue reading
No Privacy
I haven’t been able to blog since my last post due to lack of privacy. My living space is now in the throes of renovations. Drywall dust abounds. I have been relegated to the living room. At night I sleep … Continue reading
Around and Around I Go
I walk into her office feeling split. Two people have walked into the room. One feeling the all-pervading sadness that hasn’t eased up. The other part walks in feeling totally dissociated and not feeling a thing. How that is possible … Continue reading
Lines upon Lines
I paint a straight, horizontal, grey line about two inches thick. Within the line I paint a few red thin streaks here and there. Under the grey line I paint another line. This one is a least five inches think … Continue reading
Wordless
warning: this will be about suicide I have picked up my computer a hundred times only to put it back down a hundred times. So much is swirling through my head but I can’t seem to find the words or … Continue reading
Words
I live in my head, unconnected to my body. I am starting to see how true this is. In last night’s session as well as many sessions before she asks me how I’m feeling. She asks me what are the … Continue reading